Well, Im sorry to inform you all that my subscription ended and I cant renew it from Saudi Arabia, UAE, nor Egypt... My bro asked his friend to do it from Canada, and I aint got no friends in Canada, nor plan to spend my money on a subscription... Call me a communist like my mother does... I dont care

Anyways, first of all, the book Im reading- "For One More Day". A truly amazing book. I bought it last thursday and I only have a few more chapters to go. What is it about? You've hit rock bottom, and the person who usually gets you out of the mud is gone, dead... What if one day, years after that person had died, you got to spend a day with them? A normal day, just like any other day... Normal conversations... you talk to them, they talk to you, nothing unusual... The book describes the day the character Chick Benetto- divorced and an outcast- spends with his dead mother..

Although there weren't any recent deaths,I felt that this was the perfect time to read this book... Im just in this mood where I want to read something *blue.* I just feel trapped. The icon in my Mood perfectly illustrates how I feel. I know for a fact that part of my torment is temporary, although its gona last a few months...until I have the money to get MY OWN laptop, and most importantly, MY OWN Nikon D80... It is a challenge indeed... balancing college work, freelance, and extracurricular activities (public speaking www.toastmasters.org). Who is the person behind my torment? It is a person I haven't talked to in 2 weeks now, and I dont intend to talk to them until they fuckin grow up and apologize, and I know for a fact that they wont, because they always believe they're right just because they're older... Before you "bless" me with your wise words, it is much deeper than an issue of laptop and camera.. I cant change how I feel bout that person, and I realized Im becoming more and more indifferent to the situation. And afterall, indifferent is way better than feelings of hate... Im not saying I feel no hate whatsoever.. I still feel it, but lets hope it fades into "0" with time..

Im usually a very forgiving person, but I tend to be 200% intolerant to some things..
Anyways, please dont get the impression that Im "going through hell." I have gr8 friends, gr8 extracurricular activities, and a gr8 mother and siblings that I dont think I can ever hate.